Konichiwaaaaaaaa , !

Hehe ,

i met Nanami and Sota . Nanami's 16 and Sota's 12. both of them are siblings. and yeah, i had fun talking with Nanami since she understands English and i can speak a lil bit of japanese. now, they're going to another school and yes, i'm going to miss them.

i'm sure 4 Perdana had loads of fun with them today. Nanami and Sota learned the Can Mali Can song, hihi . i can see that Nanami like that part. she was like, "HOI HOI!" kawaaaaaaaaiii !! XD
Sota, on the other hand, he's a bit shy, but when he smiles, goddamnit! he's cute. hontou ni ! XD

I'll upload their picture as soon as i can :)

my honest thoughts.

seriously , when people text or write an e-mail , or sometimes write a story, here's the thing. i hate it when they write it like this , i m3@n c0m3 on! wh@t !$ d!Z $#izz?!

i mean, when you asked me to read something, then don't write it like this, this is shit , and trust me, if you know what mr 'T' is, you'll understand, because i'm from there. but if you're not, that i'm sorry.

Almost fell of the horse..

okay, here's the thing, i went horse riding (sorry no picture, i didn't bring my camera)
at first, things were okay. i rode as usual, without the instructor by my side, but he's far off at the end of the field, watching me. Then the horse suddenly stopped in the middle of the field, and you know what it did ?! it stopped and EAT ! EAT ! i'm riding a horse and it can stopped and EAT ?! so, i calm myself down (first time riding without the instructor by my side) then kicked my legs forward, and it worked.
i rode as usual, then it suddenly stopped and begin to jumped, it's like i'm riding a wild bull and i swear i panic, the roped got lose and i lose balance, my body was half hanging on the horse, people are panicking and i heard gasping and yelling for me to hold on. a few second more i heard the instructor shouted "pull it harder ! harder!" i knew the more i panic, the chances of me falling down is higher, i calm myself down and think straight. i did as i was told, i pulled the rope horses harder and it worked. then i pulled myself up and straightened myself. Everybody is looking and watching, all of them looked relieved. i bent down onto the horse, stroke it's mane and i talked to it, "Calm yourself down, and then we rode, no more galloping, just walk" i said. After a few minutes, i kicked my legs forward and rode it as usual.

all the single ladies out there.

Okay read this bitches and read it well,

a lot of my friends came bawling and some of them complaint about the life of being single. Here's the thing, it's not that bad living life a single bitch. i'm totally happy with mine and why can't you guys ? i mean, single is just a status, it's nothing more.

Ans i'm telling you, being single doesn't mean that nobody wants you. it means that you're independent and you don't have to rely on anybody to get through your life. I'm doing fine with my messed up life and being single showed that you're strong enough to cope.

You have a crush on a boy ? that's fine ! it's okay, but he doesn't love you back? now that's Ouch. but hey, maybe there's a good reason, it's just the way of God saying 'i have something better for you'. we don't know when, or how, but He knows what's best for us, so just trust him and go with the flow, aite? :)

Beautiful voice :)

Bekah's graduation song, the one that she wrote and sang by herself. It's a slap in the face to Pledis that they lose someone talented like her.

I'm missing Bekah ;(

Bekah had announced that she will be graduating from After School last month, and yeah, she already graduated. I'm still tearing up inside, she's like, my favorite rapper other then Jiyong and Amber.

Jooyeon admitted that she's missing Bekah too, and then the leader Kahi. I keep on tearing up because of this, but whatever Bekah's decision is, she's always have my support and yeah, she's forever an After School and i'm forever a Playgirl.

i know we had a lot in common

Okay, here's the thing. i'm a useless bitch, wait, it's a bitch, not a slut. there's a difference between those two. okay, we let that pass by because that's not what i wanted to talk about here.

fact 1 :
How many of you can memorize a song lyrics in a few minutes but you can't memorize the simple mathematics formula ? well, this is my problem. i can memorize all the difficult dance steps, and hardest word to say in a lyric, but the simple and plain mathematics formula ? never --'

fact 2 :
i'm telling you guys that at night, my bed doesn't feel comfortable at all, like seriously, it's hard for me to sleep. i would be tossing around and roll about and sometimes i just jumped on my bed, trying to tire myself, but no use. How about in the morning? does my bed feels comfortable ? hoyeah, it's comfortable and cozy and it feels everything that made you reluctant to get up to go to school. am i right people ?

Never realised.

never noticed my heart beats fast because of him. i never noticed that i always shy away when he's around. i never noticed that i had ignored my friends because of him. not until my friends pointed it out in my face. most of all, i never thought i would fall for him, hard.

Before this, i saw him in school, i always kept my distance away from him, in fact i do not intended to be friends with him, at all! But now, i guess things had changed.

a friend of mine, Mas, brought him to our dance practice. to be honest, i didn't know he's interested in dancing and he's not like what the rumors had said. he may looked like he's ready to kill someone, but when he smiles, he looked so calm and gentle.

i grew fond of him every single day. my heart beats fast when he's not around, and faster when he is. i always wonder why am i like this. i paced back and forth when he's late to our class, when i don't even bother when the other guys are late.

he's a country boy, yes, but it didnt matter to me. i just wanted to be friends. but one of the boys in TBM (The Black Mirror) said,

"i don't like country people." he said. without thinking about this boy feelings. i was like, "It's not a sin to be one."

and you know what did the punk said ?! "it is to me." i was like, WTF?!

i hope the new guy didn't feel sad, :'(

today, we skipped school, the whole Black Mirror skipped school, we're practicing for our audition. but we didn't make it, too bad huh? maybe we need more practice, we're still amatuers. sure, we are all sad, but there's always a next time, and next time, we'll be prepared.

Mas and i are busy packing our bags, Amir and Fahmi are walking together, (not that they're gay or anything.) but there's someone missing, yes. its the new boy. I looked around searching for him, and bingo, i spotted him, starting towards his motorcycle. without any second thought, my body moved by itself and chased him.

i blocked his path, asking him questions that i already knew the answers. i begged him to stay, (not in a desperate way, of course).

"we're heading towards Lenggong, you come too." i said. he shrugged.

"i don't know,Elle." he said.

"i know you're dissapointed, because i am too, but come one, let's cheer you up, okay?" i flashed him s smile.

he stared at me for a moment, and then he nodded. "i'll go back home first, then i'll come."

"Promise?"

"okay." he finally smile and i'm telling you, my heart felt like exploding into pieces!

so, he went back to his house, and here we are, hanging out at Lenggong (it's a restaurant.) Mas's little sister and her friends joined us. we were joking and fooling around and then there's a total of awkward silence. suddenly Amir decided to talk.

"You like him don't you Elle?" he narrowed his eyes towards me.

i flustered. don't ask me why because i don't even know myself. "pfft! no! hah, why?"

"come on, Elle. we saw it in your eyes. i mean, the way you looked at him, the way you talked to him, and your anxious eyes when he's not around. you kept on asking about him, and most of all, the way you ignored us when you teach him the steps. Woman, it's obvious. just admit it." Fahmi decided to join the conversation and now, all eyes on me.

i looked around trying to avoid their gazes so i looked down to my lap. and think hard.

"i don't know, how can you guys know when i dont know myself?!" i breathed.

"because you're my friend. we had been hanging out since forever." fahmi claimed.

I closed my eyes and an image of him flashed into my mind. i thought back hard. i did shy away when he's around or when he stared at me during my dance routine. i did wait for him when he's late. i chased after him without hesitation, i felt sad when he's dissapointed. and now, i'm waiting for him and i felt anxious because he's not here yet.

i raised my chin and stared at Fahmi for a moment. then's when i made my decision, that's when i knew the truth and i had been stupid for not realizing sooner, "You're right guys." i paused. "I love him." i smiled at them.

we finally dropped the subject as soon as we saw him approaching us with his motorcycle. Amir squeezed next to Fahmi. Making room for Mr.perfect to sit beside me.

"Eh, move it man! let him sit next to Elle!"

"wait!"

"Oit! is your butt that big?! you're squeezing me! ish!"

it was chaos in the restaurant. and finally, when he already sat in his chair, Amir squeezed next to him, making him leaning to me. Can they get any more obvious?!

sure i was happy i got friends like them. sure i was happy that he's around me but, there's one thing that i am not happy about. he got his own lover.

Showdown 2011.

you guys heard of Elecoldxhot right? if you watch Showdown, i'm sure you have heard of them.

I like them, no no. make it , i love them. they're waaaaay better than Wakaka Crew.

Sorry, no offense. just stating the facts here. Well, yeah, other than Jabbawockeez, Diversity and High-Tech, Elecoldxhot, are no diff. if they didn't win in Showdown, there's something wrong. but, it's too soon to judge. So yeah,


Go Elecoldxhot !
you guys got my support. i'm a fan. officially a fan :)

Hello again people. sorry i wasn't be able to hang out here in Blogspot a lot. i got a story to finish, and i had been hanging in Tumblr a lot. Sorry Bloggie.

but that's not what i wanna say here today. okay, this guy up here , he's mine. What the fuck ? oh yeah beeshes, he's mine. i repeat again, he's mine. i know you guys were like,

"isn't he GD?"
"that's Kwon Jiyong right?"
"huh,"
"is this bitch for real?"

true true true, that's GD, that's Kwon Jiyong and that's my boyfriend. ooops, it's husband. sorry. Haha, well, he got swag baby, and a total badass. totally my type.

GDVIP's , so sorry. Hahaha, i guess it's nothing that a typical celebrity crush ?
i know you bieber fans got too, (p/s : i'm not a bieber fan)

So yeah, he's mine. i'm his bitch, he's my slut <3

toodles, xoxo <3

Hello , Hello .

hello there peeps . i had been a long time since i updated my blog . at first, i lost my password , when i found it , i tried to log in , but it won't verify my account . so then i moved on to tumblr for a while . i was a total noob on tumblr at first . but when you got use to it , you're like 'hey , this is easier !' still , i ain't have many friends on tumblr . so you see , i'm still sticking with Blogspot :)